I think I get it now! Duh!

Ok so tracker filled with green triangles good. Tracker with little to no green triangles bad. Basically if it isn't made of salad don't eat it!

I will never give up on myself. I know if I eat the veggies, fruit and protien and limit the sugars and carbs I will be healthy. If I binge on sugar and processed food I'm doomed. It fails me every time and I don't know why I do it. I just do. I think about it a lot this time. Why do we fall off the wagon? Is it like those kids who cut themselves over and over again? Why? They are not killing themselves (immediately anyway) but just hurting themselves over and over and they derive pleasure from this? Is that what eating is for me an emotional cut?

The good thing is now that I'm a serial tracker I catch it really fast. Cause it if it is 3:00PM and you've run out of daily points THAT ISN'T GOOD! To continue on this thought if it is Tuesday and you've used up your weekly points and it's 3:00pm and you've run out of daily points! Well to put it nicely YOU FUCKED UP!

But I am not alone. I'm learning from every mistake I make and I'm motivated to beat this. To be the best, healthiest biatch in town! I have rockin hair, a great rack and look out world cause I'm losing weight every day and slowly getting to be the healthiest me ever!