Don't worry be happy! OR ELSE!

Fuuuuuuuuck. Stress sucks. Feeling off and not in the zone sucks. I have been having a week from hell. I hate my job and I'm letting it get to me. So this is what I'm learning this week.

The euphoric honeymoon stage rocks. Feeling good, walking around with a skip in your step. It makes the WW relationship work better. When shit happens and it brings you down BAD THINGS HAPPEN. You lose your control, your strength and you cave. Then you get down on yourself for caving and then it just goes down hill from there. The week is not over and I'm determined not to let it go down the drain because of a couple of bad days. However I had to check myself today. I was starting to spiral. I wouldn't dare sneak a scale peek this week I'll be lucky if I get through it with a zero pass this week and not a + crap moment.

So the trick is be happy? How? And without really bad drugs with very low point values! How am I supposed to take myself away from this crap place, and the crap shit that comes with it and keep smiling and skipping and be all honeymoon?

I'm glad I stopped myself from totally flaking out again. The trick for me was. I want that happy high feeling, being in control gives me that feeling. The scale going to new lows gives me that feeling. Seeing friends and having them comment about how great I look, and you're glowing and there is a fabulous energy about you gives me that feeling.

So putting aside the assholes I work with, the fact that I hate my job I'm going to focus on that feeling, the good one, the high one. I'm doing everything I can re: the job. I've applied everywhere I can think of. I've gone on interviews. I'm working from home and building a home business. I'm doing everything I can to move away from this hell hole, so it is only a matter of time before that is going to happen. In the meantime, I'm going to focus on the fabulousness that is me. Cause feeling fab is a great great feeling!