Day One - Points and Lists

So I made my way into a Weight Watchers center this morning. I walked in and received the memership option speal which was very simple. There is a registration fee, and a weekly meeting fee. If you buy a bundle of weeks the registration fee and weekly meeting fee drops. Seeing as I have a way to go to goal, I picked the 26 week plan. Once I'm all paid up, and I've filled in the form, I receive my first week of material, a temporary membership card and I'm off to the lady with the scale. I stand on the scale. She says nothing, just writes down a few things, sticks a sticker on my weekly book, stamps it, hands me the book and I'm off to the main circle.

I like this already. I really didn't want to face the scale today, and see what damage I've done this week enjoying the indulgence of being a fat pig. Today is the consequence of that indulgence and at that point I wasn't ready to face it. I then am introduced to Kelly who is the meeting leader and she welcomes me to the program. She like all the Weight Watcher employees has had success with the program and she asks me what brought me here. So I tell her the Jenny Craig nightmare, I lost 30 pounds, I got sick and vitamin deficient, they couldn't help me because they only want to help people that buy their food...yada yada yada, thought this would be a good place to continue my journey.

She's very bubbly and excited about this because I've shown I have discipline to stay on a program, and I've already got the mind set. She jumps to her little flip board and starts going through the program. I'm not going to outline this here if you want more information go to www.weightwatcher.ca and find out for yourselves. But half and hour later I decided to go with the flexpoints program instead of the core (list) program.

So I'm halfway through my day, counting points, and drinking my water. So far so good. I just went shopping and found a bunch of low cal snacks like popcorn - 1 point. Very awesome! Pre-packaged cookies/sunchips at 100 cal per bag 2 points. So I'll be able to have a few treats along the way too!

Mainly I have to remember to have 2 milk servings a day and 5 vegetable servins per day. This will be my challange. But I'm up for it a bit excited to be cooking again. I feel like I could eat everything again. As long as it fits into my points total for the day!

So 93.4 lbs to lose! That is a lot! But one week at at time I'm going to tackle that number down!

The Day Before the Beginning

So in hopes of not killing two years worth of diet and exercise and ALOT of money. I've decided to embark on a new program to help keep me in balance. The old program Jenny Craig, made me sick, vitamin deficient to be exact. Eating nothing but processed foods mixed in with a few fresh fruit and vegetables hurt me over the long run. I guess you're body just get's used to it, or stops processing it. Whatever it was it was unfortunate. Because I did lose weight, and I did have total control of my life. It spilled over every aspect of my life, my work, my relationships and of course my clothes. I changed into a completely different person. That is why I don't want to lose everything I gained on this journey, that is why I'm started fresh on a new program.

This time Weight Watchers. Hopefuly I will be able to get the same "control feeling" I've had up until now. This time eating grocery bought foods. Fresh god-created food that isn't going to make me sick!

So before you embark on a new journey it is important to reflect what brought you there. (I don't know why, it is just what everyone says.) So here goes...

Why am I starting this progam?
I'm fat. Morbidly obese according to the BMI. Doctor says it too, but in a much kinder gentler way. More like "you are at a high risk of..." then she lists everything I'm at a high risk of. Too long a list to remember. I'm sad. I hate looking in the mirror and at pictures. I hate the way I look. I don't want to look like this anymore. I'm frustrated. I feel like I've done EVERYTHING. Why is it so hard? I exercise. I try and eat healthy. I try and drink water. I try so hard but it is never enough. I get frustrated then I fall. I'm lonely. How can anyone else like me if I don't like myself?

With that said ... I'm on a mission. A mission to redeem myself. A mission to prove to myself that I can continue this journey and get to the end. No unrealistic goals. No putting myself down. Starting tomorrow (after endulging in a few sinful eats) I will be the new person again. The new person I became last year that changed her job, changed her style, changed her attitude and was on top of the world.